
I need rugby.
I need rugby.
I need rugby.
I seriously need rugby.
Can I just reconfigure my life so that it'll just revolve around rugby?
Everything else is just not doing so well at the moment. Like most people who see running as a way to distract themselves from their complicated lives, rugby makes me feel at home and wanted. When I step onto that rugby field, I forget everything else. I forget what I have the next day. I forget what I did on the previous.
On the field, I'm free of emotional stress. On the field, nothing else matters. (Other than severe and utter physical torture.) I don't mind the pain. It keeps me distracted from the going-ons in my life. It tells me I'm living my life my way. Physical pain makes people feel alive. It makes me feel alive.
Why is it so hard for 1 man to do what he wants? Feel what he wants to feel? Live the way he wants to live?
Can I please have my emotional freedom back? Can I please have facial reconstruction so that my face won't look sad and angry all the time? Maybe I should have included that in my resolutions list. Damn. Nevermind, it'll go into my 2010 resolutions list.
Anyway, yesterday was perhaps my most enjoyed day in these few weeks. Eventhough there wasn't rugby to complement me meeting her, RP's match against NP was perhaps the most exhilarating game of football/soccer I've watched live. What more, my bro Zuladly scored a hat trick to help RP get to the top of his IVP standings table.
Nice butt-goal, superb long range effort and an astounding free-kick tap in secured RP a win over NP, with the game ending at 5-2. Now, if only I was free on thursday to watch them play ITE in their last group match. They desperately need a win to keep their hopes alive of reaching the semi-finals. I'll be praying for a win on thursday and I'll be working my ass off so that a win would materialise in my rugby match against PJC on the same day and at the same time. (Zul, you scored 3 goals, now it's my turn to get 3 tries.)
till then,
I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone. - Javan